What a week!

Okay so I left you last with the news of my son Luke having the flu. Well he is back to his normal self. Thank God for that, he is now running, playing, screaming, and eating.
This week in clinical I was introduced to a 2 patient load. I know that does not seem like alot, but when you are learning, it is trust me. I had to be reminded by my primary nurse every time a med was due, this really bothered me, because I should be on top of anything it should be meds. Oh well lesson learned I definitely need better time management skils, and this will come about throughout the weeks.
Clinical seemed to drag on and while I was standing with Robin, gathering my thoughts I said to her, it is moments like these when I wonder...can I really hang as a nurse, I mean they make it look so easy (the RN's who are already established). I definitley feel called to this career and know this is where I am supposed to, however at 930 pm when clinical has not gone perfectly as all of us nursing students wish for, it is then that I start to question myself. I am over that thinking for this week and will be until my next overwhelming night on clinical.
After clinical I was called in to sit with a suicidal patient at the hospital. I am called a D.A.R.T. monitor. Rewind, my day started at 10am and clinical was 2p-10p and monitor from 11p-7a. So I was exhausted, but this overnight task allowed me to get all of my paperwork for clinical done. About 5am I started to nod off, but my patient was quite the snore machine, so sleep was not going to happen for me. I got home about 0730 and slept unitl 4p on Friday.
Every Friday and Saturday I work at the local hospital in the ER. I work 3rd shift and it is a 12 hour shift 7p-7a. I get home and sleep for 8 hours, this usually gives me 2 hours to spend with the fam before I do it all over again. This weekend brought in many flu infected individuals, some really sick older people and several overdoses. I am well rested and working on a project for school with Ashley and Robin, and we will soon begin to study for our first exam of the semester. That is all for now. Soon to come...Mini Meltdown!